Category: Balance

Two Days of Wasteland

After feeling like I was holding my breath for the last ten days, the (2008!) tax materials went to the accountant on Monday. And I still didn’t feel like I could exhale. It was as done as it was going to be, and I couldn’t sleep, and have spent the last two days in an …

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Raining Shoes

Not those kind. For good or not, most of the time I go through life waiting for some shoe to drop. The good side is that it helps make me better prepared; the not so good side is that preparing for things that don’t happen takes a lot of energy that might have benefited me …

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Insomnia Always

I never learned how to sleep well. When I was very young, I learned how to convincingly pretend I was asleep, which obviously means I couldn’t really be sleeping then, or much of anytime else. Sleeping, to me, was synonymous with not good surprises. Pretending to sleep either got me ignored or got me some …

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It's Like School Is Starting

I mean, for me, personally. When I was a kid, I always welcomed the start of school as a marker for new adventures, new (non-life threatening) challenges, and new hope. I created ways to become increasingly lost in my studies, as a means of not dealing with my particular hell-for-a-childhood reality. Starting school was a …

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I Have To Eat

You know, I spent most of my life trying to not eat, and feeling guilty and self-loathing when I did anyway, or using food as a control device — when it’s not controlling me — or actively not caring if I was committing slow suicide and eating whatever I damned well felt like eating. Me …

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Well, Just Turn the Lights Out Already

Okay, too far too fast. I’m trying to do too many things all at once and there’s only one of me. Sort of. I seriously don’t know how people who were never multiples get everything done. I am trying to organize and time-manage/orchestrate reading, writing, marketing, typesetting, and taxes so they all fit neatly into …

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