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I Have To Eat

You know, I spent most of my life trying to not eat, and feeling guilty and self-loathing when I did anyway, or using food as a control device — when it’s not controlling me — or actively not caring if I was committing slow suicide and eating whatever I damned well felt like eating. Me …

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Well, Just Turn the Lights Out Already

Okay, too far too fast. I’m trying to do too many things all at once and there’s only one of me. Sort of. I seriously don’t know how people who were never multiples get everything done. I am trying to organize and time-manage/orchestrate reading, writing, marketing, typesetting, and taxes so they all fit neatly into …

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Dancing for Normal

When I was first diagnosed with diabetes about 20 years ago, my original hbA1c test was 13.4. The A1c gives a good snapshot measure of your blood sugar levels over the last three months, weighting heavier to the last six weeks. The people who set the standards moved the goal posts several times through the …

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The "Routine" of Distractions

At what point does what you do routinely turn into a distraction? Everything that interests me, I look at with a “dry sponge meet drip” mentality. No drop left behind. I want to know it all, whether it’s about the economy, the stock market, multiplicity, book marketing, the Red Sox, diabetes, cats, weight loss surgery, …

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Triggers Inform You

Many abuse survivors are hyper-sensitive to things that remind them — or trigger a response in them — of a danger or grievous wrong that happened long ago. It feels fresh, though. It may appear quite innocently, as in a song not heard in years, or a certain smell from the kitchen or someone’s perfume. …

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