After feeling like I was holding my breath for the last ten days, the (2008!) tax materials went to the accountant on Monday. And I still didn’t feel like I could exhale. It was as done as it was going to be, and I couldn’t sleep, and have spent the last two days in an …
Category: Balance
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Sep 28 2009
Raining Shoes
Not those kind. For good or not, most of the time I go through life waiting for some shoe to drop. The good side is that it helps make me better prepared; the not so good side is that preparing for things that don’t happen takes a lot of energy that might have benefited me …
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Sep 17 2009
Insomnia Always
I never learned how to sleep well. When I was very young, I learned how to convincingly pretend I was asleep, which obviously means I couldn’t really be sleeping then, or much of anytime else. Sleeping, to me, was synonymous with not good surprises. Pretending to sleep either got me ignored or got me some …
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Sep 13 2009
It's Like School Is Starting
I mean, for me, personally. When I was a kid, I always welcomed the start of school as a marker for new adventures, new (non-life threatening) challenges, and new hope. I created ways to become increasingly lost in my studies, as a means of not dealing with my particular hell-for-a-childhood reality. Starting school was a …
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Sep 08 2009
I Have To Eat
You know, I spent most of my life trying to not eat, and feeling guilty and self-loathing when I did anyway, or using food as a control device — when it’s not controlling me — or actively not caring if I was committing slow suicide and eating whatever I damned well felt like eating. Me …
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Aug 31 2009
Well, Just Turn the Lights Out Already
Okay, too far too fast. I’m trying to do too many things all at once and there’s only one of me. Sort of. I seriously don’t know how people who were never multiples get everything done. I am trying to organize and time-manage/orchestrate reading, writing, marketing, typesetting, and taxes so they all fit neatly into …
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