Probably my biggest character flaw is that I procrastinate things to my detriment, and for no easily ascertained good reason. That was the case with my physical health for many years. Now I get to play catch up with it. It also happens every year at tax time. (We never owe money, so you’d think it would be easier to just do it. But nooooo.)
I can think about doing something for a very long time, rather than just getting it done. I used to believe there was a grander purpose to those thought processes, but maybe there isn’t really any great consciousness awakening after all. Not enough to justify all the delay and the angst about the delay and guilt about the angst about the delay.
I always feel so much better, such relief, when these procrastinated items are finished. My “new improved plan” is to focus on the relief as my reward. Focus on the satisfaction, not the fear. Getting it out into the open helps.